Kehidupan.

We had a pesta muda-mudi at Cik Syuk's room. I brought sliced-papaya and honeydew. Not ALL were invited. Thus, we're having this masam-muka-sebab-tak-dapat-invitation punya senario di concrete jungle ini. Saya sendiri rasa serba salah sebab beberapa rakan sekerja tidak dijemput. Pernah kami menyuarakan sebelum ini, to include them in the Pesta, but the seniors macam tak setuju. I seriously have no answer to this. Pada saya diorang semua OK je.

Atau mungkin ada yang tak berapa 'ngam' dengan orang yang tak dijemput. Atau mungkin ada isu lepas yang belum dileraikan lagi antara mereka. ENTAHLA.

Saya pergi ke Pesta itu sebab it was organised by a senior. Plus, my Ketua Unit was there too. and she expected ME to go there, so i went.

Hmmm.

Serba salah dibuatnya. Especially bila diperli rakan-rakan sebab rapat dengan 'seniors'.

Seriously and honestly, saya bukan jenis kipas-bontot-bos/seniors. Mungkin saya bukan jenis yang 'tunjuk' saya marah atau memberontak, because mostly, yang baik dan buruk, saya akan coretkan dalam blog ini atau bagitahu suami. Mungkin juga kerana saya tidak pernah mengatakan TIDAK kepada mereka walaupun hati saya membara. I know....it sounds like im being a hypocrite, tapi, for the benefit of MYSELF to be a better officer in this concrete jungle, why not?!

i dont mind if i have to send the kertas MJM to sg on my own, i dont mind to do most of the typing of the bills that i assist, i dont mind at all. Because at least, by now, i know the full-complete format of drafting a bill and blue-print-bill.

Most of the things which some of my rakan think, 'bukan kerja aku' kinda job pun, saya buat juga. Walaupun saya memang mengadu. Tapi, semuanya saya mengadu dalam blog ini atau pada, siapa lagi kalau bukan suami.

Kekadang saya teringin bagitahu mereka semua. Sebab suatu masa, kita semua akan berada di tempat seorang 'senior' yang tak menang tangan nak buat kerja dan terpaksa minta tolong junior. In fact sekarang ni pun, kalau kami terlalu banyak tanggung jawab, a senior would come with a helping hand.

walaupun sememanganya ada a few yang saya rasa macam nak baling cpu kat muka dia, tapi, cuba lihat dan teliti balik...siapalah SAYA.

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Hari ini agak melankoli. Saya tak tahu kenapa tapi saya amat merindui ayah saya yang tercinta.

Semenjak dari saya bangun pagi tadi.

Alangkah bahagianya seorang anak, mempunyai sebuah keluarga yang sempurna.

Alangkah bahagianya kawan saya yang baru menyambut hari jadi, ibu dan ayahnya bersama berpakat membeli kek, di tengah malam, membuat kejutan di bilik kawan saya, nyanyi lagu dan meniup lilin di atas katil bersama adik-beradik yang lain.  Wahh..keluarga yang tiada masalah.

Saya senyum dan terasa bahang di mata ketika mendengar ceritanya.

Alangkah sedihnya menjadi saya.

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Well, i guess, time heals EVERY wound.

So hopefully, time...please heal mine.

I love you suami.

6th

The 80's babies (including mua) surely have, at least for once, watched any of the series. and Mua has the Elmo's world collections since those 'crawling' years. Ummi selalu cakap that i ONLY tido berdengkur dengan nyenyaknye kalau pasang lagu-lagu Elmo.

Tengoklah si kenit berwarna merah di atas letter O itew...sangat comel!

The above is todays google features. and it somehow made me smile this morning when i logged on the internet with the intention to update muaself with the news (uhuk poyo).

It's their 40th anni. So OLD.

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We're having a talk with prof shad, our former consti-lecturer. This is not the first time im meeting him after those uni years but for quite sometimes dah.

He was involved in one of the Bills, passed last year. and we had various meetings with him. Knowing the fact that most of the officers in this division were harvested from the uni, during those meetings, he treated us as if we were still his students, (it's just that this time around, it is US who get to give commands hehehee)

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Hubby is (as always) busy with his cases which involved the uncivilized human beings heh. and at the same time, he's trying to squeeze some of his uptight time for his final exams. He is, supposedly on leave for this whole week but unfortunately he has a case tomorrow in seremban, so terpaksalah masuk concrete jungle harini untuk prepare.

He's been in service for almost 3 years now and so far he has traveled the whole peninsular and sarawak for his cases and im proud of you husband!

but at the same time, i think he can be a real pain in the *ss. hehehehehehee he broke my-all-time-fave-hairband and fixed it with the cellophane-tape.

I came back home yesterday only to find my hairband all-wrapped with the tape. nak marah dan nak gelak, sama banyak.

Tapi kesian sebab tengok dua matanya yang terkebil-kebil menunjukkan dia innocent.

huh.

takpelah. walaupun itulah juga hairband yang saya pakai bila saya malas nak pakai anak tudung.

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We didnt get to celebrate our 6th monthlisary (8/11/09) as he's still busy with his finals and trials. But he has already booked a place somewhere in december to spend his quality times with me, mua famili and his famili together.

i dont wish to go anywhere outside the country, not even jurong. i just wish to go some place where we could celebrate our year end together as a big-full-of-love-happy-content FAMILY. I wanna know more about his parents, his siblings and he definitely wants to track down my memory lane as well...although sometimes i just hate elaborating too much infos about it.

But im pretty much sure that by now, u've known me much enough.

Btw, hubby, i somehow have a plan for the both of us, this year end too. So, make some space for the queen as well ok?!

Till then, Happy 6th Monthlisary for our Big Day. It has been half of the year.

Now, are you ready for the next journey?

Honestly, sometimes i think im, but sometimes it's a big NO. Wait. Gimme a break.

But for whatever comes, i thank you, Allah. I accept anything that for you, is best for the both of us.

But at the mean time, i wont waste even a minute of my 24 hours that u've given me to make all the people around me HAPPY. it's the precious moments in life that i shall cherish until the day when i have to add in another reponsibility and another 'title' in my life.

I love you tuan fc.

yourstruly,

apd.

Kelate Vs. N9

and N9 won the match. M not into football but because of the fact that i was born in kelate and hubby was born in N9, i was 'summoned' by my heart to watch the match. At first, we wanted to join the flock at the stadium but the ticks were all sold out.

Angah came along from his Uni to watch the match at our humble abode. After dinner, goreng apa-apa yang patut, mengunyah, sambil menonton.

my eyes were not exactly focusing on the ball but towards the red-warrior-fans. Shisssh. I somehow thank GOD that i wasnt at the stadium. Siap baling-baling botol air, bakar seats, bawak mercun. Adoi.

mengapakah?

the stadium was 70% surrounded by the red-warrior fans. and THAT amount shows how many kelantanese are in town. GILER RAMAI! I bet most of them are not all the way from kelantan to watch the match, they are all here, there, EVERYWHERE in kl, pj and etc. 

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flood.

why is the news always always broadcasting Kota Bharu as a rumah-kayu-zink-kinda area?

and my familia was really shocked with the flood-news on tv. Ummi thought that our teratak back in kb was effected. Called the renter, tapi, tak pun. Infact the real KB itself IS NOT FLOODED pun. So the news must have shown the border of KB. Ish Ish Ish.

and hubby thought that our usual balik-kampung-pot (Intan) juga kena banjir. Hello brother, mungkin Intan tu tingkat 6 koootttt..mana nak banjir. hehehehehehee

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Dont ever ask on what happened between myself and hubby before/during/after the football match. Bengkaaakkkkk je telinga aku dengar ayat-ayat perli darinya.

Oh, like it or not, you are part of the (weird) family! the word weird is referring to those cold-blooded families. heeeeeeee

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i (again) baked cupcakes. and im thinking of baking another one during sis da punya Majlis Kesyukuran untuk her unborn baby girl!

I've learned on how to deco a set of booties. GILER COMEL OK.

and im getting addicted with cuppycakes nowadays.

But before that, i have to bake some for my inlaws this coming weekends. Dah lama tak balik N9..

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Hubby, good luck in your final exams today. I bet you're crackin' ur head on the UIA-exam-paper-standard.

Well, not to braggg but i think OUR Uni's standard is far more DIFFICULT.

daaa~

roommates.

i dont really know how exactly to become a good roommate, because i definitely have failed being one during my last semester (in Uni).

Throughout the years in my uni, i drove all the way from teratak to S.A, everyday, without fail, without a single whining even when there was a bumper to bumper traffic. Much to my surprise that it was more difficult to staying in a small house with some close friends rather than being stuck in a traffic jam.

i would rather choose the latter i.e: stuck in a massive traffic.

i thought, as we grow older, things would be much more better. We learn each day to be a more better person but the whole positive views in growing older have came to an end when i happen to be in between the fine line of 2 of my besties' war.

One year ago, my friend (a colleague) was looking for a roommate and i introduced her to my friend (we've known each other since my day one in Uni).

Time passed by and all i know, yesterday, my Uni friend received an sms from my colleague that she wants her to get out of the house. The sms was kinda harsh and i would classified it as "ayat-ayat menghalau".

The thing is, both of them, talk about each other's back, to me.

So i've made my own 'judgment' based on both side stories. hehehee

i sometimes ketawa kecil because i never thought that this roommates problem is still happening around altho we've all grown so much in all positive aspects of life.

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My Colleague bengang because my Uni friend seems to be very very nosy (according to her). My Uni friend would throw her expired mayo, bawang busuk, and bla bla bla from the fridge and she sometimes buy groceries for them both dan tidak berkira pun.

But my colleage thinks, she's just being nosy about her stuff.

Adoila.

Bukan ke tu untuk kebaikan?

In fact, my Uni friend was the one who sent her to the hosp when she was suffering chest-pain in the middle of the night. She was the one who packed her bags, brought her lunch, visited her EVERYDAY without fail in the hospital.

But then, being human, she just cant see those good things my uni friend have made. and my Uni friend, keeping human, doesnt give a shitE on what my colleague says about her, as if NOTHING has been said and done.

For the many, i would say, insane and ridiculous reasons, my Uni friend received the sms yesterday.

and for the first time, she burst-out all her non-disclosure issues before this at one go to me, yesterday. She's been keeping it all by herself.

Adoila.

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The point is, can she, live alone in the house? No. I dont think so. Because, she used to call me at around 2 am when i was at teratak. She was afraid because of the HEAVY RAIN. 

but that was during my bujang days.

and with this wedding ring im wearing, i dont think i would be able to entertain all her needs anymore.

My priorities have definitely changed.

oh, she's not just my colleague, but also, my neighbour.

I certainly dont wanna have another responsibility to hold. To look after her; that is.

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Another thing is, she, never has the courtesy to even say HI to my husband who used to help her with her flat-tyre.

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When my Uni friend is not in the house, i would be the one who look after all her needs. Dia demam, saya bawak, Mentol lampu pecah, saya teman belikan...

you know, those stuff.

Honestly speaking, i think, altho she is 2 years elder, i would consider myself as much more independant than her! seriously.

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and there are many many more things, INSTRUCTIONs, DIRECTIONS, my Uni friend and i always get from her.

Urgghhhh..

she will definitely HAUNT me after this.

bosses.

I just dont understand mine, do you?

urrgghh.

she wants us to reply ALL her emails, at least "dimaklumi" so that she knows everyone reads her emails. My name was mentioned in the meeting (monday, the juniors with the bosses) as one of the culprits who didnt reply her emails. After the meeting, i logged on and browsed thru my emails and made a quick search for ALL emails by her and i sent "dimaklumi".

hahahahaa

semua orang mengikuti jejak langkah saya selepas itu.

and we all received a big THANK YOU from her. heheheehehehee

saya rasa lucu. Ibarat seorang kanak-kanak yang tak ada sesiapa nak berkawan dengan dia, dia merajuk...begitulah ibaratnya bosses kami.

bukan seorang pulak tu. heheheheeee.

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Zawjy is on leave until friday. Nak study lah kononnya. Tapi tadi telefon, tengah TIDO lagi.

Semalam, seharian menyakat saya sampai nak pecah perut ketawa. Harini, komplen...

yangg..saya tak study lagi...yanggg saya ada 2 hari je nak study ni...yanngg susah lah..

dan dia akan bermuram seharian sambil membaca (kononnya). Nanti-nanti, dia akan sms atau telefon, minta saya masak lauk yang dia teringin nak makan.

Itulah suami saya.

Ini belum dia demam lagi. Lagi Dahsyat!

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Eh eh...(nak cari file jap)

Jap jap...(MANA SAYA LETAK NIE?)

Nampaknye, saya kena bangun dan menggeledah tempat ni...

sekejap.

hmm..saya kehilangan satu file. Saya tak tahu mana pergi. Saya pasti ada orang amik.

Saya perlu terjah sekarang!

Bye.